Cable Car. - The Fray

Song of the moment, Cable Car.

I love this song! anyway,

this songs never fails to describe

how I feel when I am face in my current situation.

whenever i faced in such crisis this song will pop into my mind.

which is why i kind of like this song.

I wish that,

when I asked you what was wrong you were more frank and honest with me.

Instead of replying just a mere don't know,

when I asked if everything is al right.

I am not being paranoid or anything, its just that I care.

if i don't value this friendship,

I would not have put in much effort into finding out what's wrong.

I wish everything will resume to us being really awesome friends again.

Trying hard to not let this situation affect me, at the moment.

Lyrics to Over My Head (Cable Car) :

I never knew
I never knew
that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run
when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

When everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on, oh...

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and it's effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fFRkpvvop3I

The Day I Blog My Last

2010 a brand new year, i assumed at the start of the year that this year would be a brand new year, but i was wrong, 3 months into it and a lot of thing had happen, and now, ahh.. i dunno what to do, i really do not know, i wish i can run away from every single things but you know what, it is impossible, as how long can i run?

anyway, when i am sad, i will stop being sad and be awesome!!!!
ok, i will be back blog, i am just going to be away for a while, might be back in one to two months time or maybe 3 years time or never to blog in this blog again? i dunno depending on how fast i get over certain issues...

ok, all the best!!! woot woot!!!

The Day I Blog Something Really COOL

ok, it is not really cool but it is something that brighten up my day..
i went to google my name..

Nigel.

it means ( taken from http://www.thinkbabynames.com/meaning/1/Nigel)

The boy's name Nigel \n(i)-

gel\ is pronounced NYE-jel. It is of Irish and Gaelic origin, and its meaning is "champion".

i am a born winner! ok, random random..
iy brighten up my day!! woot woot!

anyway, yesterday night i had the crazy dream ever, i dreamt that someone wear my orange shirt and i was super sad about it, i think the person stole it or something like that, since i like the shirt so much, i snatch it back!! smart right, ok.. random random

The Day I Know What I Want To Do Brief discription

there are a lot of things out there that i want to do, my ambition and things like that, i used to want to be an auditor but plan failed, so i need to re discover my self and i did! i found a new goal in life, new plans.!!! woot woot, i know what i want!!!!!

Ok so this will be what it suppose to be for now.

i go to my poly and score really well!

then i will go NS.
AND SIGN ON TO THE NAVY!

I love the navy

sign on as Navel warfare system engineer or system expert in electronic or ordnance and electrical weapon system.
it will be cool one day where u see my making weapons for the navy and doing things for it!!
starting pay $1727 ok, thats not the point

i want to join the navy cause i like ships battle ships, because they just look gorgeous in the sea, also, i think i was amazed when i went for the navy open house when i was young and was amazed by it, and i like submarine too. the only thing i hate about it is diving and swiming in the ocean, i have a bit of sea sick, so, it is a mind over matter thing and i know i can do it.

at the age of 24 or 25, i wonder if they allow me to take a 1 month break to join the amazing race, hopefully they will, haha. cause being on the amazing race is one of the dreams i have.

oh yea, i am going to surrender this dream and pray about this to God, asking if this is the path he wants me to take.
oh man, i love the navy,

the day that the dagger is still there

the dagger is still there
i have not remove it yet
it is still causing pain
i dunno why
i delay in removing the dagger
maybe this will cause even more hurt
i am still looking on the problem
and not the solution
i am not like the others who can move on very fast.
there is still extreme hurt.

The Day that change my life a 100%

ok, i hate the emotional side of me as it will affect me super bad.

another person causing me to hurt so bad at a time like this... this time from someone really unexpected.

The Day I Intro My Friend Denial

ok, my friend denial is getting way ahead of me now.

denial is such an awful friend. denial wants me to believe things that can be real, denial make me raise my expectations so high about myself. always making me believe in things that are ok when they are not, this atmosphere of lies. that will cause damage in the things i do if reality struck. Anyway, thank you denial for telling me that i am the best because of this, i believe i can do things that are in efficiency. Nothing can stop me.. except reality.